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by Lola Anaya

i still remember the tender sunshine across your face and those blue glasses
​i always thought we could have changed our world 
although, we did change each other 
your hands were so much bigger than mine 
there were drawings of animals on your walls 
you were always an artist 
and you drew an impression on me 


we are reduced to one awkward text exchange 
from a few weeks ago 
and i can live with that 
because you were just a portal 
into who i am now; 
proud 
and maybe i am okay too 


i still remember: 
hair tangled in mine 
we were only fifteen but that was fine 
i made many mistakes 
you were rightfully hurt 
the sun set on us
 
these words release the two girls having fun 
ditching their friends to see each other 
those days are gone 
i choose to let go 


but i still remember 
and i am grateful

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Lola Anaya is a Puerto Rican student from New York City attending Smith College who loves to write about a variety of subjects. You can find their work in The Sophian, which is Smith’s newspaper, and Citrus, Smith’s fashion magazine. She loves to read as well, and currently loves memoirs like Broken by Jenny Lawson and Hunger by Roxane Gay. They are passionate about art history too, and are pursuing a bachelor’s degree double majoring in english and art history. Someday they want to publish their own book and you can always find them wandering around a museum in the city.